TGIF

Well I am so glad it is Friday, it has been a hectic but productive week. I am rejuvenated in the area of writing. The support I have received from friends and family has been very uplifting. It has given me the confidence to try to do something, formally, that I have wanted to do for years. The writing group I am joining is one that I have come to realize is a group for support and good direction, not one to judge me and point out my inadequacies. It is all good. "Niall's Writings" is the Blog where I am going to do my writing on a subject, that subject being me mostly. I was told that I have some political leanings in my writings and I also have a memior wanting to come out. The second is the direction I am going to choose. It has always been my dream to write about my life, like every good drama (at least to me), it will be filled with humor. So for my first week I think I have done OK. I have figured out what kind of writing I am going to do so that is a huge start. Now starting tomorrow or Sunday, I will write page one of Niall's Writings. Good Luck to me. Thank you for listening.

I'm Off

So I was told, or I should say it was suggested that I give the Writers group 20 pages of my writings. Of course my first thought was I can't come up with 20 pages, after writing for 23 years, imagine not being able to come up with 20 pages. I have to remember that this is a learning process, that is why I am so honored to be included in this group, I will finally learn "how to" write in a form that people can read, one with some order, and not just my thoughts and opinions; or how I was feeling that day. I imagine this story to be funny, and with the life I have led, funny is not the first word that should come to my mind. I know today that every single thing that I went through made me who I am today, and I am OK today, and I do now find humor in the story that comes from Niall's Voice. I need to get back to the other blog, Niall's Writings, but short steps, one at a time right. Yeah that's the ticket.

Have a great day.

The Pen is so heavy

Now that I have decided to join the writing group, every insecurity that could come up, is coming up. I had belief in writing or expressing my thoughts, life experiences, and just about everything. Well I know it is in the very early stages, but c'mon, how can I get writers block before I pick up the pen. Talk about the wall of fear, it has grown in the last few days. It is my understanding that the people in the group have experience, have the ability and willingness to share their knowledge, and must have invited me for some reason, other than I am just a terrific writer. This is where the faith comes in and knocks down that wall of fear. I spoke to a dear friend last night and shared with her my "title" of the unwriiten book. I will put it out here for the first time, well the first time since joining a group of writers. The book, if nothing changes, will be called "Someone Left the Cake Out in the Rain......" Yes it has something to do with the song Macarthur Park. Only to the extent of what it means to me, I think it speaks to me and my life, the events of my life, and the many passions that drove me in the directions I took. More will be revealed, as I put it to paper/blog!!

Writing Group

I was just invited to participate in a writing group. Of course my first thought was YOU CAN'T DO THAT, then I said a prayer and God said, oh yes you can. So I am doing it, what it is I am not sure right now. I will just show up to fulfill my dream of someday writing a book. I have been away so long from writing here. It is good to be back

Marriage Equality

So my Marriage EqualityResolution for GLBT's was consolidated with another resolution to go before the Delegate's convention in September, hopefully this will make for a better Resolution that will stand for a better chance of passing. As for the NYS Senate it looks like the Marriage Bill for GLBT people will be addressed in September, so hope still stands, maybe more so since it is taken away from the insanity happening in the Legislature at this point. Just a thought.

trying something new

I am trying to still navigate this site, Some people may get e-mails when I post, or I may have totally done the opposite, so be patient please. Like the first one I did when it was e-mailed to me there was misspellings

TGIF

So here we are, it is a beatiful Friday in NYC, and the NYS Senate has supposedly gone back to work. I wonder if they should have been punished for not adhering to the NYS Taylor Law, no job actions by Civil Servants. I don't think my boss would let me show up for 10 minutes and go back to my hotel or home. But, the more important issue is that will they now have the decency to pass Gay Marriage, I know they are right on the let's raise the sales tax issue, but no mention on Gay marriage.. I want to get married, can I get an Amen.......

Pride Sunday

I don't think you can really be proud of being gay because it isn't something you've done. You can only be proud of not being ashamed".-- Quentin Crisp I really like this, I never thought of it this way. Thanks Hellskitch........thanks Quentin Crisp...... Either way I had a great day with friends, all sober, saw many who were not, and felt bad, it just wasn't as glamourous as it once looked, or I thought I was. Thank God for sobriety, for the summer and for some relaxing times. I saw a lot of groups with the Marriage equality posters that have been a part of my every day life the last few months, I felt like all that work was worth it, sometimes I felt so alone, even in a crowded room. Today was the celebratory part of the job. Just for today......

Friday of Pride

So it is Pride weekend in New York City, may all have a great time, whether it be quiet and restful, or wild and partying, just have PRIDE in who you are...........

At work

Just found out I can write from work, this may be good, maybe not, but it gives me some more time to stay on top of this writing. It is a good day so far, if the rain would just stop.............

Hitting the Road

So just for the record, after all my blabbing on the work, the fun is coming, Rafa and I are going on vacation in a few weeks, Denmark, Estonia, Germany, Russia, Finland, Sweden, Amsterdam on Atlantis Cruise, can't wait.............

Telling my story

So once again my voice here seems to have been silent. I have been active.
We just had a great Statewide Conference where I sat on a panel discussing the issues of Marriage Equality, it was excellent. It was also very emotional, just being able to sit there and open up about My Heart story, it was in 3 sections, Head, Heart, Action. I spoke about the fact that Marriage Equality affects children who are GLBT and are now growing up here this fierce battle and saying to themselves, WOW, am I that bad, that I do not deserve equality, and when I grow up I can't marry the person I love. BUT, maybe they will be able to. That is why the fight must go on.
It just takes so much out of you that I do not feel like writing on the blog after all is done.
I will try harder

Let's Do it

My resolution was accepted on Marriage Equality for GLBT's. Now it is up to the Delegates of the Union. Let's pray for the Senate to let this go to a vote and for the Senators to have the guts to do the right thing. Give us EQUAL RIGHTS nothing more nothing less.

We're Gonna have a Resolution

Folks it is good to back back, I am working on a Resolution for Marriage Equality in NYS with my union CSEA, I will put it all on Niall's writings Now I am off to Ireland

Speaking out

I was just part of my union's (CSEA) Political Action Committee (PAC) and the GLBT Committee come together to work side by side, to educate members of CSEA on the GLBT's they may work with, live with and/or just educate people in general. On the PAC side we are going to move fast and forward

Prayers for Bobby

Just watched Prayers for Bobby, it will take a little while to really give my feelings and thoughts about it. Every person I spoke to who knows a gay person or is a gay person and watched this movie was touched somehow. It has awoken my mission in life, what Neil is supposed to do, what God has put on Neil's heart, my minsitry if you may say. I have done it before and I will do it again. I spoke nationally about being "Delivered" from Homosexuality and heard all the Bible verses and now I know God's truth and I feel my stomach churning to get out there and fight for those with no voice, or those who are being fed lies, in the name of God. bring em on I say I am ready.

Prayers for Bobby

I am watching it now, it is heartbreaking, because of the ignorance and because of the way it hits so close to home,a life I lived and thankfully recovered and escaped from. I will share more of my voice after it.

Back in the US of A

So I had this great idea of blogging from Lima Peru, and all over the world, well there is something to say for Wireless and Laptops and Wi-Fi, etc..... Every time I had something brilliant to write about, NO CONNECTION, well ok maybe it was not brilliant, but it was my voice, I couldn't connect. So folks, please help me to keep my voice going. I want to .........go to http://niallswritings.blogspot.com/

Mira Flores

So I sit here in Peru, Mira Flores typing on my blog on my brand new Laptop, who would have thunk it, I love this. So now folks you will have Niall's voice to hear from wherever I go, you thought you got a break SORRY I have founf Niall's voice I am talking, and now there is no stopping me, I have nothing much to say right now, I put no sun screen on, so I will probably be suffering later, that is OK. I am still amazed at the little kitten trying to feed off the dog, if we would all be so adaptable and willing to work together.

WELL NOW IVE SEEN EVERYTHING

So here I am in Lima Peru and it is 85 and sunny, can you say beautiful for january. I just saw the best thing, a few week old kitten nursing from a dog, I got great pictures, it was just the idea of one living thing taking care of another, no matter who or what they are, I and a lot of people can learn from this, Democrat, Republican, Independent, we all need to take care of each other no matter how different we are, I mean it was a kitten and grown dog, beautiful ! Pictures to follow